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Moving once again... [17 Apr 2007|04:25pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I haven't been on this thing in foreverrr. I got arrested on December 3rd for drug paraphenelia and as a result of that I had been given random drug testing for the past 3 months, 2 days community service, I had to write a paper and also even participate in this drug rehab program.... AND now, Travis and I are even getting evicted out of our apartment. All just for one little one hitter, not even possession. It's all such bull shit!

I've pretty much came to the conclusion that I'm going to spend the summer at my dad's house in Fort Myers, FL. I have a lot of bills to pay off and a lot of people to pay back so I think I'm just going to work my ass off for the entire summer and come back to live in Hartford with Travis in a new apartment in the fall. I'm going to miss him so fucking much. This is a guy who I'm so in love with and he makes me so happy although many people would disagree. You can't help who you love. Sometimes I just look at him wearing my headband and a hawaiin shirt and I think, I'm never going to find anyone who makes me feel this way, ever. I love him so much and it's going to suck going to bed alone every night in the summer... and it's going to suck even more having to take a break for the summer. Rarrrrr. My hearts a breaking...

Star-crossed Lovers

Long overdue update... [23 Dec 2006|03:09pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Wow it's been a long time. I'm in Florida right now visiting my Dad and Pa until the day after Christmas then I'm heading back to Nashuaaa. Everythings going pretty good at the current time. I'm going into my second semester as a junior, holy shit. I feel sooo old. When I started this LJ I was a sophomore in high school! Anyways, I fell in love with my best friend and we have a great relationship. What more could I ask for? I've found a man who I could live my future with, he's amazing. I'm still busting my ass at Friendly's, but as soon as I get back to Hartford I'm looking for a new job! First I need to buy a car. I can't believe I've been bumming rides off people since May! (Dont drink and drive folks).

On December 7, my Uncle Donald passed away due to a heart attack. If you all know my cousin Chris Leach, that was his father so send your condolences. He was a great guy and he even let me live with him last summer, which was one of the greatest times of my life. I will always remember him as a fun, care-free guy that was always down for a good time. You will be missed<33

I don't know what else to write about. I'm trucking through school, in my first serious relationship in almost 3 years, clean and almost sober, happy for the first time in a VERY long time.

Comment if you even read this hahhh

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Love me love me, say that you love me... [03 Oct 2006|03:47pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Junior year has already been a fucking rollercoaster.
I've been in and out of doctor's offices, taking all kinds of meds... I just want to feel better. Not just physically... but mentally. I blame myself for feeling like this, and I blame my mistakes. I haven't been taking good care of my body in the past few years... and I wonder why I always feel like shit. Trav and I were fighting hardcore for a few days. I'm not even going to get into it but it was the worst fight I've ever had with a person... so bad that I was almost on the next flight out to Seattle two days before my uncle's wedding... I wasn't even gonna tell anyone.

Everything is getting back to normal... but things are just messy between us. We have no set boundaries... someone is going to get hurt. But I'm going to make sure it's not me. I can't handle the pressure anymore. The love that I have for him is more than I have ever had for any guy in my entire life... it's sickening. I would do absolutely anything just to make him happy... and he knows that. And finally I know how he feels about me. He is my best friend, and I could never live without him... and I plan on never living without him. The past few days, we've really taken the time to open up to each other and get down to why we were REALLY fighting. We've talked A LOT, about everything... and I feel better about us. I've found out a lot of things I've never known about him. And we've been having a ridiculous amount of fun around the apartment. We went to my Uncle steves wedding last friday night in Derry, NH. It was a really fun night and Trav looked so handsome : ) He met the whole fam and obviously they all loved him. We stayed at a really nice hotel and then he turned 21 at midnight. We had a great time together.

School... work... school... work. Thats the life Ive been leading. I should have taken the semester off. I don't understand why I don't listen to my gut when it tells me the right thing to do. It's such a hassle to get to class without a car. I don't know what I wanna do with my life. I really have no motivation right now. I wish I could just take the rest of the semester off. I wonder if there is a way to go about doing that.

Robby leaves for Iraq for the LAST TIME on Friday. I know I should be used to it by now, but it still cares the fucking shit out of me. I love my brother, I would die if anything happened to him. He's the most important person in my life. But thank god he's out of the Army for good on June 26, 2007. I can't believe that four years has gone by. I remember sitting on the steps outside my dads apartment with Wids, Leach, Mark, Lesco, KK, Alyssa, Megan and my mom waving goodbye to him... it was the saddest day of my life. Even going back and ready the entry in my LJ about when he left makes me so sad. I can't wait til he's out for GOOD!

That's all for now. <33

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Can i be your memory.. [07 Aug 2006|10:06pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

I come home feeling as though I'm being pushed back into this old life. I'm not that person anymore, and I can definetly feel it now. Nashua no longer means coming home to see my best friend and spend time with her, its not working at Market Basket, its not visiting my mom or visiting an old boyfriend... it means none of those things anymore. Now it's just a hassle. When I stay away for too long I start to think I miss it and then I get home and it's like... so what? The few people I do spend time with, I love them and I love being around them but there are so many people who aren't worth the effort anymore or have straight up lost touch with me. It's life and I understand it, but it sucks.

I haven't seen my brother since November and I get to go with my mom in the am to pick him up from the airport!! Then hopefully Travis is coming up after his class, which would be awesomeeee. Then Wed I'm leaving for FLORIDA! I'm so pumped to take a lil vaca. I've been reading this book that both Bonnie and Trav recommended to me called A Million Little Pieces. It's one of those books that you just cant put down once you start. It's by James Fray and about his experience in rehab, it's intense. I shall quote:
"I start to cry. Tears begin running down my fave and quiet sobs escape me. I don't know what I'm doing and I don't know wy I'm here and I don't know how things ever got this bad. I try to find answers but they aren't there. I'm too fucked up to have answers. Im too fucked up for anyting. The tears come harder and sobs become louder and I curl up on the cold tile floor and hug myself. I hug myself an dI wail ad it's morning and 'm somehwere in Minnesota and I haven't had a drink in five days and I don't know what the fuck is happening to me."

Loveeee it.

Star-crossed Lovers

[04 Aug 2006|10:47am]
[ mood | restless ]

Last weekend was the Dave Matthews show. Wids, Urban, and Amy came down for the weekend. The night of the show I spend $170 on me and Travs ticket, then ten minutes later he got arrested. It was all a bunch of bullshit and put a large damper on my night, but nonetheless I still had a pretty good time with the girls and Wids. The next morning I bailed Trav out of jail and spent the day/night with him while the other kids went back for more Dave. I love those fucking girls (and OBV Wids), we had a lot of fun together. I wish I was around Nashua more often to party with them.

It's moving day today! I can't believe I'm moving out of my first apartment. I'm growing up way too fast. Bradley, Bonnie, Travis and I were looking into houses and went and checked a couple of them out and applied for some, but no dice. It wouldve been a lot of fun but a lot of work/money to live in a house. So I'm moving in to Travis's apartment today and Bradley and Bonnie are getting their own place in a month. It seems like yesterday I moved into Clemens Place, and it's kind of sad that I'm leaving already. But it will be good to not live in a neighborhood where you're forced to fall asleep to Ambulance/Fire truck sirens all night and constantly hear shots being fired. It'll be nice to walk across the street without being asked if I got a dollar or come in contact with anymore crackheads. And it'll be nice not to worry if my car will get stolen. Although it's only a couple blocks away, West Hartford and Hartford are completely two different worlds.

I'm a bit nervous about living with Travis though, only because I've seen what living with a friend can do to that friendship... and Travs my best friend, I would never wanna lose what we have over something like money. He keeps reassuring me that we will be fine, we love each other. But I'm saying this right now... ANYTHING can happen in the next year. All I can do is try and prepare myself.

My lover Cotter is coming to pick me up tomorrow to bring me back to Nashua!! I cant fucking wait to see my bro on Tuesday. I'm sad that I'll only see him for a day or two because then I'm leaving on Wednesday for 2 weeks wtih my Daddy in FL. I desperately need a vacation though, a well deserved one. I can't believe Im not gonna see Trav for 3 weeks :(

Thats all for now. <3

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Oh Livejournal. [23 Jul 2006|03:39pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Last Monday, we all went to Max Downtown and cruised around Hartford in a limo all night. It was by far the best meal of my life and we had so much fun drinking bud lites in a friggen limo. I love those three kids so much.

After not talking to my dad for 3 months because of my drunken car accident, I'm going to Fort Myers again to visit him and fix things from August 9-24th. I love getting away from everything for awhile, and give myself time to sort through a lot of things alone. I'm going to miss Travis so much. I didn't think we could get any closer, but we have. When he's not in Jersey for the weekend, I get to spend every second of my time with him... and it's great. We both know we got something great here. That much time alone is just gonna suck though.

Where the hell is Tiffany Ternullo?

My roomie Jeff is going away to Danbury Correctional for 4 months. :( Dont even wanna talk about it. But this weekend is DAVE MATTHEWWWWWWSSSSSSS!!!!!

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Life is fantastic. [13 Jul 2006|01:15am]
[ mood | happy ]

On Monday night after everyone gets home from Jersey, I'm taking Travis, Bonnie and Bradley to one of the nicest four star restaurants in downtown Hartford. Financially Ive been lucky lately and I want to take my favorites out for a night on the town. We're all getting dressed up and it's going to be a really great night, that we all need. There's been talk of getting a house together in 6 months. A house?? Thats fuckin crazy.

Leave me some loveee <3

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Oooo eyyy [19 Jun 2006|03:31pm]
[ mood | blah ]

A summer outside of Nashua just aint the same.
Sitting around getting high all day, the occasional summer class and waiting on tables.
I miss driving aimlessly with Biff all day, swimming in Uncle Ds pool drinking beers and waiting for Wids to get out of work. Last summer was the shit. Hartford in the off season sucks.

I'm always missin how the way things used to be. It's no lie that drugs have split up my group of friends who I thought were so tight, I called them my family. But eyy life goes on and people change. I can't do the he said she said bull shit anymore, and it seems like Ive been trying so hard at Travis for so long... and for what? I dont have anything better to do I guess. But we're going to Nashua this weekend and I can't be more excited. I miss my fam too. And I love Nashua, and I love Travis.. so there ya go.

My friend Jeff moved into my apartment a couple days ago. He is a male version of me pretty much... we have a lot of fun together. Now my rent will be lower which will make things a whole lot easier, especially if I decide to go back to school in the fall. All I need now is a car. The greatest grandfather in the world, my Pa has offered to split the cost of one for me with my Dad (who I still havent talked to since my accident), but in return I have to listen to a million drunk driving lectures... which I think I need anyways.

My class ends in 4 days and by the end of the week I should have a car, which means I'm praying to god I can get out of this damn city for a lil bit. I'm going crazy.

Miss you loves

Beyond the bare aesthetics
There's nothing drawing me in
But you'll do for just one night
And so will this bottle of gin

Star-crossed Lovers

DONT JUDGE ME [13 May 2006|02:22pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

Last night I went to the bar behind my place with my friend Jeff and eventually Trav and my friend Alex. It's been a real rough week with finals and everything so I needed a drink... bad. So I had two double espresso martinis, four pints of magic hat and a key lime pie cocktail. Yeah, I was tanked. We've all done some pretty stupid things in our years but what is it going to take for me to learn my lesson? I don't really recall but I had to drive Trav home for a sec then I went home to get something and on my way home I either a) hit a parked car, b) hit a moving vehicle, or c) hit a person. I'm going with option B. Why am I so fucking stupid sometimes? Why do I always think that shit like that can't happen to me, like I have control over the situation. I could be fucking dead right now. Trav and I woke up this morning trying to piece together what happened, because I'm pretty sure I was blacked out. My passenger door will barely open and my whole front end on that side is FUCKED. I'm not bragging... I'm preaching. I know everyone drives after having a few drinks but even if you think you're okay to drive... YOU'RE NOT. So please everyone just be careful and don't make stupid mistakes like I do.


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run it, run it. [26 Apr 2006|12:46pm]
Second semester of sophomore year is finally coming to an end, thank god. I said that this semester was going to kick my ass, and it did… a couple of times. I’m barely getting by in school right now. I was supposed to get my AA in May but that’s not happening… hopefully by July. I’m like 80% sure that I’m taking next semester off. I just can’t handle school and work and worrying about money and all that shit right now. I don’t even know what I wanna do with my life and I’m not gonna go into my junior year with no sense of direction. Either way, I’m in Hartford for good.
Last weekend I took Trav home with me to Nash. Driving there I got a sense of happiness that I haven’t felt in the longest time… the one I love in Hartford being with the ones I love in Nash, was the best fucking thing everrrr. And I love him, I really do… and I loved that my friends loved him and my mom loved him. Waking up everyday with a dreaded sadness and feeling like that when I’m with him and my best friends, awesomeeeee.

Im just blabbing shit and shit. Someone leave me a damn comment… RIP Livejournal?
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[11 Apr 2006|12:25am]
[ mood | confused ]

Not livejournal appropriate probably but read if you want.Collapse )

"so if you feel like making war
then you better talk about it
before you get it started
and if you feel like makin war
then you better realize what you're fighting for.."

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Hay Love* [27 Mar 2006|11:20am]
[ mood | happy ]

I haven't written in over month, crazzzy. I agree with Ricky, I don't have the heart to delete this thing. I've had my LJ for almost 5 years. I love going back and reading entries from a long time ago, it shows how much I've changed and I love that.

Anyways, I just got back to Hartford last night after a week of being gone for SPRING BREAK! Tiff and I went to Fort Myers to visit my Dad and Pa. Even though we didn't party or anything like that, I still had an amazing time. Being with my family and Biff at the same time... I couldn't ask for anything more. And it's no lie that our friendship was on the rocks there for awhile, but I'm so happy we got that time to spend together. Life is moving way too fast and although I don't see her every single day like I used to, she's still my best friend in the world and nothing will ever change that. I used to cry and go crazy when I didn't see her for a few months, but that's the way it's going to be for a long time now since we live in different states, and I'm okay with that. Because it's not how much time we spend together... she's still my number one. But that vacation is just what I needed. I took a lot of time to just relax, not think about school or work... it was great. I got extremely sunburnt on my legs the second day we were there and couldn't get out of bed for two days. But then Tiff and I went to Busch gardens and rode a million rollercoasters and had a lot of fun.

Before I went on break, I was heading down a path of destruction. It was a never ending circle of waiting tables and pulling 2-3 all nighters a week to do homework. I've been working so much (averaged 40 hours a week) to pay for my apartment so I can go to school, but I've been working so much I can't keep up with my classes and sometimes couldn't even go at all. So I got my midterm grades in the mail and when I saw my highest grade was a D, I almost had a heart attack. I told my boss I have to cut wayyy back because of my classes, so now I'm gonna be getting 3 days off a week instead of 1, or sometimes none. I really need to turn myself around by the end of the semester or I'm gonna have to drop out. But it's not like I've been drinking every night and that's why I've been slacking... I've been working sooo hard, but it just wasn't good enough. I didn't even have time to spend with my friends. Every free second I got I spent with Travis, and even then I was doing work when we were hanging out. For my own healths sake, I'm making serious changes.

I've realized over break how much my friends here really do mean to me. I'm absolutely head over heels infactuated with Travis, I can't get enough of him. And for once in my life, I've found a guy that feels the same way about me than I do about him... and is not afraid to tell me that. No guy on this planet can make me feel the way that Trav does. Even with my mental breakdowns, he's been there for me so much and he always knows how to cheer me up. The night before I left for Florida, St Pattys Day, we were having a party at Trav and Bradleys place and at like 1130 or so, me and him went up to his room and watched a movie together and had a serious heart to heart. I'm not afraid to tell him how I feel about him, we're so comfortable around each other. I could tell him anything. And he tells me everything and I love that. Before break Bonnie, Bradley and I were real distant and there was so much tension between us. I love both of them so much and I hate seeing them do the shit they do, same with Travis. But drug addictions and all, we're a family. I could never leave these people, as much as it would be good for me... we've stuck together through every thing. And I have confidence that the rest of the semester, things will change and everything will be back to the way it was. I absolutely love Travis, Bradley, Bonnie, Bethel and Dui. They are my family and I'll say it til the day I die. From the inside looking in to our circle of friends, people think we are crazy. But I'm crazy about these people and I don't care what ANYONE thinks about us. So we're a fucked up group of people, no one is perfect. But I take care of them, and in a way they take care of me. We are all perfect for each other it's ridiculous.

Spending a week away from Hartford has made my judgment cloudy and for some reason, I got back into my old mindstate and expectations for my future with the ex. How could I possibly expect a future with someone who is so different from me in every way? I can't stress enough how different I am than when I lived in Nashua. I feel so out of place there and so disconnected from a lot of people I went to high school with, besides Tiff obviously, she doesnt count. Sometimes I don't know what I'm thinking and I just blurt out whatevers on my mind that second that might get me into trouble later. Ohhh blah blah blah I need to stop my ranting and over-analyzing. I'm happy with my life at this moment and I'm happy with who I'm with.

I have so much more going on but that's as much as I can get out for now... so maybe another update in a month or so haha.

Someone leave me a damn comment, does anyone ever read these things anymore??

"We're traveled like gypsies
Only with worse luck and far less gold
We're the kids you used to love
But then we grew old
We're the lifers here till the bitter end
Condemned from the start
Ashamed of the way
The songs and the words own the beating of our hearts"
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[15 Feb 2006|02:01pm]
[ mood | busy ]

I have a lot to write about. But im too lazy. Valentines Day was nice. First date with Mike. But... here are pictures.

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Biffs Bday Bash 2006: Hartford StyleCollapse )

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how about them records? [30 Jan 2006|01:31pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I miss livejournal.
it's been awhile.Collapse )

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i hope you never forget the tapping at your window.. [09 Jan 2006|06:59pm]
[ mood | good ]

Today, one year ago, we lost our dear friend Justin "Stoner" Gevurtz.
Hope you're resting in peace buddy.

2006 hasn't started out as I planned. A lot of little things have been going wrong. Car getting towed, breaking my car key, missing my first class, among other things. But I've been lucky enough to spend a lot of time with Trav, Josh, Dui and Bethel. I love being around Travis, he makes me happy. I think it's because he reminds me a lot of Robby Fruetel and the friendship that him and I had. I consider myself a very lucky girl.

Break in Nashua was really good actually. It was junior high all over again. Got to see a lot of people I haven't in awhile, it was nice. New years was the shit. Kicked leachs ass in ruit into 2006. I realized just how much Ive changed when I was at home. Feelings that Ive had for the same person for almost six years are still there... and I used to always think that there was a reason why we still saw each other after all this... but now Im beginning to think it was all in my head. I love him, I really do... but we've grown up and grown apart. For some reason, in the back of my mind I always thought we'd end up together, but I can't see that ever happening. Im realizing that that part of my life is over, and it makes me sad. I just need to finally let go.


i would like to thank you, for showing me
a part of myself that i have never seen
yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun
and i guess these things just tend to fall apart
and i hope you feel the same.
Star-crossed Lovers

FUCK YOU 2005, I'm OUT!! [31 Dec 2005|01:17pm]
[ mood | excited ]

The end of 2005 has arrived, the worst year of my life is coming to an end! I never get this excited over New Years, never. But this year I have a reason to. For the first time ever, Kelly Dungan is making a new years resolution. Without getting into too much unnecessary detail over LJ, my resolution is to lead a healthier lifestyle. Stop being such a piece of trash, and clean my act up (and i aint talking about booze). My winter break has been amazing, and things are slowly starting to feel back to normal... I can't let those bad things influence me anymore and I can't lose my best friend again. So that's it for me, that's what I've decided. Some people may not particularly like my decision, but I don't fucking care.


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Im a sick one with a smile :-) [21 Dec 2005|05:37pm]
[ mood | good ]

So here I am, back in Fort Myers, FL!
I don't like to break tradition, but maybe this year will be the start of a new one. Usually Christmas time involves hours upon hours of shopping at the mall with Tiff, midnight mass with my brother at IC, "A Christmas Story" all day and night, turtleneck sweaters, fireplaces, laying around with biff and burnham watching movies in our pajamas, day after xmas shopping at pheasant lane... but I'm not doing any of that this year. Instead, I'll just be laying around the pool staring at the decorated palm trees around me. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful to be here with my family but I love Christmas time in New England. And not to mention... everyones home in Nashua and I'm here alone. It's good though because I get to spend time with my Dad and Pa, and I love them.

I'm leaving here the day after Christmas and going back to Hartford for a night or two then going to NASHUA! It's good to get away from Hartford for a little bit...everyone needs a break once in awhile, especially after everything thats happened over the past two weeks EEEK.

Bonnie and I have been talking lately about what we wanna do when our lease is up in July. I DO NOT want to stay in the neighborhood I'm in and she doesn't either so we've decided that since we practically live at Bradley and Travis's, we mine as well get a place with them, not an apartment but a house or duplex. Since I've been back from Thanksgiving, I've slept at my apartment maybe 3 or 4 times. It just makes sense to live with them, financially. And we all take real good care of each other too. I brought the idea up to Bradley when Bonnie went home and he was really excited about it. I think it'll be good for all of us. I hope it all works out.

I've been talking to Robby a lot lately and I'm really scared for when he leaves on January 4th :-/
He said that things are going to be a lot different this time when he's over there in Mozul, Iraq. He said it's the most dangerous city right now over there and what he's doing is not going to be safe, at all. When he came to my apartment and was really drunk he kept saying, "I might not be here one day.." and got really emotional. I don't wanna hear that from my brother! And I can't tell my mom or dad about what he's been saying because I don't wanna scare them either. It's not a good situation to deal with but I gotta be strong for him although I am scared to death. :-(


"I'm a loner,
I'm a loser,
I'm a winner,
In my mind.

I'm a bad one,
I'm a good one,
I'm a sick one,
With a smile.

I can't take this,
Born to break this."

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Now, can't you see something's missing [14 Dec 2005|06:48pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

there are times when i just sit back and watch my life unfold like a movie.
last night and today was a series of unfortunate events. there are so many things always left unsaid between people and that only causes it to build up and explode in a drunken rage. we're all just fucking crazy and cant deal with each other sometimes. there are so many secrets kept, but its the type of secret where its a "dont tell anyone", and everyone knows and wont say anything. sometimes i dont know who to trust. the two girls that i have trusted my entire life with have both broken my heart so bad in the past week, i cant even deal with it. no one is who they say they really are, no one ever means the words they say. i dont trust anyone anymore. when i say "best friends forever" i dont mean "best friends until one of us screws up". i dont even know what to do in this situation.

yesterday in english i heard the most intelligent remark to ever come out of a student from the university of hartford. "when a person is taken out of their element, they change as a person." and that, ladies and gentlemen, is a true fact. i cant even compare myself to the person i was when i left nashua to come to hartford. im completely different. and not all in a bad way either. hartford is a completely different world.

i cant wait to be on the beach in 6 days. shut my phone off, close my eyes, and just forget about all the messes that have occurred.

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

Star-crossed Lovers

Cold and frosty morning.. theres not a lot to say.. [07 Dec 2005|12:47pm]
[ mood | blank ]

last night was JUST what i needed.
after walking around aimlessly with swollen eyes for the whole day... robby wids and lesco came to hartford!! it was the largest party ive had all year and minus a few dramatic events, the night went really well. i was so excited for my brother to meet bonnie and all my friends, but i was pretty nervous too. he got along with everyone real well.. him and travis were up til 3am while robby told him stories about iraq. it was so great. i was so happy to see my boys.
aaaand ive never seen robby so drunk in my life. kid wouldnt stop talkingggg!! but i loveee him.

i dont know what i would do without my mom.
i dont think many 19 year old girls can call their mom and say "hey i need your help". and my mom would never judge me or yell at me for the things i do. shes always there when i need her, i love her so much.

so ill be in florida dec 20-29 then depending on the home situation i may go to nash for new years.. havent decided yet.

robby comes to hartford!Collapse )

So dont go away, say what you say
Say that you'll stay
Forever and a day ... In the time of my life
Cos I need more time, yes I need more time
Just to make things right

Damn my situation and the games I have to play
With all the things caught in my mind
Damn my education I can't find the words to say
With all the things caught in my mind

Me and you whats going on?
All we seem to know is how to show
The feelings that are wrong
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[02 Dec 2005|12:27pm]
well it wasnt easy.
but coming clean to the two most important people in my life really took the burden off my shoulders.
people make mistakes.
i know im a bad person.
my life in nashua is falling apart.
burnham and i arent friends anymore.. and im okay with that.
he needs to learn not to take everything as a joke.
i still love him but i just cant take it anymore.
ive lost a part of myself.
this week has been absolute hell.

im dying over the fact that i couldve lost my other half.
and i just might if i dont get my act together.

nashua will soon be a distant memory.
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